February 27, 2009

Getting Back to ME~! once upon a time there was I. I was living a life I did not enjoy. I felt like one of those hermit crabs... all others really saw was the shell, but inside - I was hiding. Then my life changed dramatically, and I got brave enough to take the shell off of me. I got wounded a time or two, but my own skin began to become strong enough to handle the world around me. Not only did I realize how I wanted to live, I realized WHY and what I needed to do to truly be me. Then I met someone wonderful... he liked the me that was getting stronger and working towards what I wanted... Then... I had another dramatic change in life, then the man who loved me had some issues in his life and I ran for my shell. I cowered and returned (somewhat) to that shell. Not all at once. First I just revisited it a time or two. Then I started to store thoughts and emotions there, the weaker, meaker thoughts I had been no longer entertaining... Then I just started hanging there more and more. *** YA KNOW WHAT?*** I am busting that shell. Not just taking it off. I am destroying the whole damn thing. I am getting me back!