Celibacy

Ok, so this may be weird, but at 38 years of age, I have realized the importance of NOT having sex outside of wedlock.

I am not proud of my mistakes, but I will honestly confess them if you ask me. I have openly and honestly confessed them to my Savior, Jesus Christ. Some sins I am later on confessing than others, I am after all a work in progress. Anyway, I digress.

Three years ago I purchased a book called Sex God by Rob Bell. (Please at least look at the link below if you have happened to read this.)

http://www.zondervan.com/Cultures/en-US/Product/ProductDetail.htm?ProdID=com.zondervan.9780310263463&QueryStringSite=Zondervan

I normally read a book in 2 or 3 days. If it takes me a week, it means I had a terribly busy week. This book, quite literally took me THREE YEARS to read. I bought the book because of two reasons. The first reason is that it had two of my favorite topics in the title, the second reason? It was only five dollars.

I was recently divorced at the time and was involved in a serious relationship with someone I believed I was completely in love with and even believed I might marry some day. In the end we did not marry. In fact, he married someone else just five months after he and I broke up. They are very happy and I am sincerely happy for them, but that is another blog one day.

I floundered thru several relationships (and I use that term extremely loosely) for the next few months. Then I entered into another serious relationship with someone. That relationship is in limbo at this time. Also another blog! LOL

ANYWAY...
I finally read this book in late October of last year. It has changed my life. I finally realized what GOD was telling me all those years of being stupid.

Ready??

NEVER HAVE SEX WITH ANY MAN (or woman) WHO IS NOT WILLING TO DIE FOR YOU. Never have sex outside of marriage. There is a line in those vows that is more important than worrying whether he means OBEY literally or figuratively.

TO DEATH TIL US PART.

Does your man love you enough to love you until DEATH?? Jesus proved that he loved us by DYING for us! Would your man do that???

I have vowed to myself and to God that I will not have sex outside of marriage again. I may have hard moments sticking to this. HOWEVER, that person that I was BEFORE this revelation is GONE! I am not LOOKING for that relationship on earth that I was craving before. I no longer need an imperfect love to keep me warm at night. I have God's PERFECT love and if He should decide I should marry again, I will find that person thru Christ. Otherwise, I shall be celibate til I die.

As Paul said, those who can go without - SHOULD. We have more time to serve God if we are not worried with making a human partner happy. LOL (Ok, I paraphrased...)