Rainy Days... and who to lean on in the storm

I have a head cold.


               AND


It's raining and cold outside.
So much runs through my mind.
    Good, bad, ugly, what if's and what might be's.
I feel like crying and falling into a pity party.
Memories of old vices pop up like a snake out of the blue.


Thank God in this storm
and every one I run into for the rest of my life,
I know where to place my trust.
          I know who to call on.
I don't need a man, or a shoulder, or a drug.
I can simply call on Jesus' Name and He comforts me.


He reminds me of WHO I am, who HE says I am.
I can be comforted by the fact that He has given me so much.
I have friends, I have people who love me (near and far).
I have beautiful children whom God has seem fit to love and forgive me.
Pity, pride, selfishness... those are all straight from Satan.


I can relax and lean on God.
I can take time to worship our mighty Creator.
I can be thankful for all He has done and will continue doing.
I can try to be the obedient, faithful servant He has called me to be.




I will lean on Him in EVERY storm.

All I can do is pray

I have to just stop and pray.  I beg God to intercede. I feel trapped like an animal in a cage.  I can see you through the window, maybe touch you through the fence.  But that's all.

I made mistakes.  I did wrong.  I feel like I will never be acceptable to you.  Like you plan on keeping me locked away forever.

You have no idea about who I am even when I try to tell you.  You still believe I am a creature that is not me.

Father God,  please intercede.  Show them the truth.  Help me be the true person you created.  Open eyes and hearts and allow understanding... from both sides.