I haven't blogged in a while. In September, I lost my job and have been actively searching for another. So far, I have had very little results. This job market in Birmingham is terrible! The "temp' companies seem to have LOTS of jobs, but the papers, etc. show next to nothing other than those. I am applying (sending resumes) to at least 10 companies a week for nearly 8 weeks. I am recieving unemployment, but that is only going to last so long. I cannot stand this. I feel utterly useless.
I realize that my job does not define me, however, I feel somewhat not myself without gainful employment. I know that I am a mother first and foremost in life, but I have worked for the last 16 yrs straight. After the kids were born, I went right back to work. There wasn't much choice in the matter. So now I am a stay at home mom. Something I always said I wanted to be. So why is it that I do not feel right?
Because I feel unstable in life. I am responsible for my family. If I am not their provider, then who is??? My parents and my boyfriend help when they are able to.. but it is NOT their responsibility to PAY for my children and me.
I just feel that I have no worth right now.
